Category Archives: Emo Rants

OCD Tendencies

I’ve taken the test (twice!) and been analysed and picked each other’s brains about it and still came up with the same answers. Have you heard of the Personality Test?

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Surprise surprise

The most annoying thing is when you are told repeatedly that “if you are late, your reservation/booking/rental will be forfeited” but when you request repeatedly for your deposit to be refunded, it doesn’t happen or takes over 4 months (true story)

Am so over being annoyed and frustrated at the different idiotic people who work in the different companies that have terrible (beyond atrocious) customer relations and service. Just once, can it be simple and straightforward and easy to get things done!! Seriously drives me up the wall!

And you know what gets me the most, for a country supposed to be 1st world.. It has 3rd world attitudes!! Grrrrrrrrr



Apart from my extreme crazy life at the moment, I decided to unwind with blogging and catching up on my youtube videos. I cannot imagine not doing what I have been doing lately, but I can imagine taking a break. Funny right?

Looking forward to BKK, even though I do not eat Thai food.. Urgh.. But looking forward to exploring 🙂

Am also feeling sad and thinking about friends and family a lot. And the choices we make, who they affect, what they mean. We said goodbye to the dear dear beloved of uncle alfred & Lala, Debbie and joel who will miss their mummy so very much; she was a fantastic woman who took the meaning of graciousness and style beyond words. Aunty Gloria will always be remembered and missed. It’s funny how you remember the most random thing about her when you least expect it. Like how the Sunday before she got sick, I was admiring her nail polish colour and the fact that it matched her dress or shoes.. We will never forget you..

On that note, I dedicate this to Aunty Gloria.. May you rest in peace


Destructible R Us

Things have been plodding along, with two upcoming bazaars ( car boot sale is 23rd June at Stutong market and bloom bazaar is 7th July at Koperasi Hijau) yes, madness has ensued :):)

I’m still holidaying away, but madness on emails and PM’s are still an ongoing. Thank you so very much iPad for saving me life 🙂 Back to normality tomorrow, the meetings are already piling up as I type.

It’s crazy how this time last year I still was not sure what I was supposed to be doing in Kuching. Mind you, I’m not sure this is what I’ll always be doing ( after all I can’t be known as the bazaar lady can I??) but I’m seriously enjoying life and work at the moment. It’s seriously fulfilling 🙂

Looking forward to the next two weeks, it’s fill be full speed ahead and then off to another holiday end of July! So cannot wait!!

Saw this on FB the other day and insert Random Thought Here:


Humans aka us aka everyone can be so destructive, and sometimes the scariest part is we don’t even think about it. Makes you actually stop and go woahhhh, well I did anyways. I’m definitely trying to be a better non littering and try to recycle more person now (and no I’m not some treehugger) LOL

P/s if you wanna take part in either car boot sale or thebloombazaar, lemme know 🙂 PM or DM or email me!

Pp/s check out thebloombazaar .. its coming soon!

The old days

This was sent sometime last week in a Whatsapp group chat over CNY. And it cracked me up so much!!! 🙂



We were 17, and ready to take on the world!!

And sometimes, we just need to sit back and enjoy life. Especially hanging with the family over the holidays 🙂



My super cute grandpops using the iPad 🙂

P/s only 5 more sleeeeeeeeeps

the hard hitters!

I read something profoundly fantastic today, so much so i had to copy and paste it; because it rang some major bells 🙂 and definitely i something worth being part of my life! and its true that sometimes, it just needed some ‘seasoning’ and time before putting these 30 things into practice.

have an awesome week!

article taken from here


Since today is my 30th birthday I thought it fitting to share 30 things I understand now that were complete mysteries to me just a few short years ago.  These are simple lessons about life in general that I picked up while traveling, living in different cities, working for different companies (and myself), and meeting remarkable and unusual people everywhere in between.     

There comes a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but it’s not giving up.  It’s realizing you don’t need certain people and things and the drama they bring.

If a person wants to be a part of your life they will make an obvious effort to do so.  Don’t bother reserving a space in your heart for people who do not make an effort to stay.

If you want to fly, you have to give up the things that weigh you down – which is not always as obvious and easy as it sounds.     Doing something and getting it wrong is at least ten times more productive than doing nothing.

Every success has a trail of failures behind it, and every failure is leading towards success.  You don’t fail by falling down.  You fail by never getting back up.  Sometimes you just have to forget how you feel, remember what you deserve, and keep pushing forward.

When you get to know people with different ethnic backgrounds, from different cities and countries, who live at various socioeconomic levels, you begin to realize that everyone basically wants the same things.  They want validation, love, happiness, fulfillment and hopes for a better future.  The way they pursue these desires is where things branch off, but the fundamentals are the same.  You can relate to almost everyone everywhere if you look past the superficial facades that divide us.

The more things you own, the more your things own you.  Less truly gives you more freedom.  Read The Joy of Less.

While you’re busy looking for the perfect person, you’ll probably miss the imperfect person who could make you perfectly happy.  This is as true for friendships as it is for intimate relationships.

Finding a companion or a friend isn’t about trying to transform yourself into the perfect image of what you think they want.  It’s about being exactly who you are and then finding someone who appreciates that.

Relationships must be chosen wisely.  It’s better to be alone than to be in bad company.  There’s no need to rush.  If something is meant to be, it will happen – in the right time, with the right person, and for the best reason.

Making a thousand friends is not a miracle.  A miracle is making one friend who will stand by your side when thousands are against you.

Someone will always be better looking.  Someone will always be smarter.  Someone will always be more charismatic.  But they will never be you – with your exact ideas, knowledge and skills.

Making progress involves risk.  Period.  You can’t make it to second base with your foot on first.

Every morning you are faced with two choices:  You can aimlessly stumble through the day not knowing what’s going to happen and simply react to events at a moment’s notice, or you can go through the day directing your own life and making your own decisions and destiny.  Read The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People.

Everyone makes mistakes.  If you can’t forgive others, don’t expect others to forgive you.  To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover the prisoner was you.

It’s okay to fall apart for a little while.  You don’t always have to pretend to be strong, and there is no need to constantly prove that everything is going well.  You shouldn’t be concerned with what other people are thinking either – cry if you need to – it’s healthy to shed your tears.  The sooner you do, the sooner you will be able to smile again.

We sometimes do things that are permanently foolish just because we are temporarily upset.  A lot of heartache can be avoided if you learn to control your emotions.

Someone else doesn’t have to be wrong for you to be right.  There are many roads to what’s right.  You cannot judge others by your own past.  They are living a different life than you.

What might be good for one person may not be good for another.  What might be bad for one person might change another person’s life for the better.  You have to allow people to make their own mistakes and their own decisions.

Nobody is perfect, and nobody deserves to be perfect.  Nobody has it easy.  You never know what people are going through.  Every one of us has issues.  So don’t belittle yourself or anyone else.  Everybody is fighting their own unique war.

A smile doesn’t always mean a person is happy.  Sometimes it simply means they are strong enough to face their problems.

The happiest people I know keep an open mind to new ideas and ventures, use their leisure time as a means of mental development, and love good music, good books, good pictures, good company and good conversation.  And oftentimes they are also the cause of happiness in others – me in particular.

You can’t take things too personally.  Rarely do people do things because of you.  They do things because of them.

Feelings change, people change, and time keeps rolling.  You can hold on to past mistakes or you can create your own happiness.  A smile is a choice, not a miracle.  True happiness comes from within.  Don’t make the mistake of waiting on someone or something to come along and make you happy.

It’s much harder to change the length of your life than it is to change the depth of it.

You end up regretting the things you did NOT do far more than the things you did.

When you stop chasing the wrong things you give the right things a chance to catch you.

One of the greatest challenges in life is being yourself in a world that’s trying to make you like everyone else.

Enjoy the little things, because one day you may look back and discover they were the big things.  Read The Book of Awesome.

Anyone can make a difference.  Making one person smile can change the world.  Maybe not the whole world, but their world.     Everything is a life lesson.  Everyone you meet, everything you encounter, etc.  They’re all part of the learning experience we call ‘life.’

Never forget to acknowledge the lesson, especially when things don’t go your way.  If you don’t get a job that you wanted or a relationship doesn’t work, it only means something better is out there waiting.  And the lesson you just learned is the first step towards it.

Regardless of how filthy your past has been, your future is still spotless.  Don’t start your day with the broken pieces of yesterday.  Every day is a fresh start.  Each day is a new beginning.  Every morning we wake up is the first day of the rest of our life.

What in the world are we doing?!

I got this in the email the other day, and it makes for seriously good reading. makes you sit up, think about it and go WOAHHHHH! its most definitely time for change.. seriously! especially with all that is happening in the world, let’s take a closer look at whats happening in our own backyard yo!

(please note that this in no way is race-ist, country-ist, sex-ist, national-ist and any kind of ist. it is purely meant as an academic study or a methodological type of research, of sorts. if you have beef with the article, with me, with anything here, please stop reading 🙂 or google the counter argument to appease your mind .. )





Indonesia is one of the world’s richest countries in terms of natural resources. And it is an excellent case study to understand what to do and what not to do. It is also an excellent case study because it has parallels in Malaysia with similar consequences or similar consequences in the making.

God has blessed Indonesia with gold, uranium, copper, oil, timber, beaches, seas and other wealth, including plantations. The land is fertile with abundant rain. Stick a twig into the ground and it grows into a tree. The same is true of Malaysia. The difference is that there is a large section of people who are very hardworking and a business community with investments abroad that has contributed to trade.

Yet Indonesia has a street population. Many Indonesians sleep in the streets.

Food is expensive. And it is becoming more expensive with the passing years. The average Indonesian eats some rice, tempe, tauhu and may be some vegetables for breakfast, lunch and dinner every day. Nutrition is becoming an issue in health and economy as it affects costs arising from treating people and their productivity. An average Nasi Padang meal for four persons in a single star Indonesian restaurant can cost RM60 (160,000 Rupiah). This is way beyond the income of the average Joko or Ketut in Indonesia.

Why is this so? The answer lies in the manner in which Indonesia is controlled and run as a country. It is not properly managed on democratic principles and on economic thrusts that promote activities for the creation of wealth and opportunities for all on a fair basis. It is primarily because the ruling elite groups in Indonesia do not care about the people. They have pillaged the country. They craft policies that only serve to keep the elites in power and the wealthy. The same thing is happening in Malaysia as, Malaysia, too is run on policies.

Millions of Indonesians who go to school and university but do not learn the skills that can help them survive in the real world, much less compete in a globalized world in which the developed societies are bent on steaming ahead with knowledge workers and building the competitive edge through research and commercial science. The culture of the developed societies is built on quality education, science, knowledge and research that can be accessed through the English Language. The Indonesian children are very poor in European languages including English or Dutch. All their education is in Indonesian, Bahasa Indonesia. So they are kept out of the mainstream and they cannot keep up with the latest developments and technologies. By design, they cannot compete. In fact, they cannot even play “catch-up” strategies. In consequence, they cannot effectively create wealth and remain trapped in poverty.

The children of the elite are sent overseas for their education. They get the plum jobs in which they do little to contribute to the development of the nation. An average Indonesian university graduate cannot bring world-class skills to his employers. He or she therefore earns a pittance. This is happening in Malaysia. The bumiputra university graduates are trapped in government jobs that keep them in the middle-income group. The PM’s Department, for instance, created 50,000 jobs just to give a salary to bumiputras who could not get jobs and only strike it rich if they get Government projects or contracts through the crony vine. Otherwise, they do not do much work but earn a good salary with a pension. The private sector and multinational companies demand much more competence and skills and knowledge.

Direct investments have declined to a pittance and many multinationals have relocated elsewhere while there is little investment in building new plants that produce products for the global markets and the Government is not very successful in creating new jobs in these areas. Hence, about 100,000 graduates remain unemployed in Malaysia while it continues to build more buildings are roads.

More and more bumiputra students now end up studying in the middle-east. There are probably about 20-30 thousand students in this third world countries. Bumiputra university graduates are turning up for interviews as taxi drivers and shop assistants. What about those who flunk out after SPM? They become Mat Rempits (Motorcycle Racing Gangs). Last Saturday I saw another Mat Rempit get killed at the road races in Shah Alam (near Section 7).

In Malaysia, just like in Indonesia, food is getting very expensive. But the wages and salaries of the people, especially the income of Malays, is not keeping up with the increase in prices and inflation in general. The salaried class will always find it difficult to keep up with rising costs and inflationary pressures. Yet, instead of developing the competitive ability of the people, the Government has been using the failed NEP to provide subsidies and dish out money on a plate. Everything is subsidized, even cooking oil, flour, rice, sugar, fuel, etc. The crippling effects of the successful development of the subsidy mentality over the last four decades are quite apparent and will be felt more acutely in the next few decades. The Government has been providing these subsidies so that the people will keep voting for the ruling party.

On proper analysis, it has never been to the Government’s advantage to make the Malays independent. A Malay who is independent of the Government, with regard to income, may not vote for the BN. It is therefore better to keep feeding with subsidies. So, for the past 50 years, everything has been subsidized and the future of these people is defined by subsidies and “help” given by the BN Government.

The dynamics if revenue generation and wealth distribution has taken its toll as it was a quantum shift from enabling all people towards the opportunities of economic activity for the creation of wealth. And with 25 million people in the country, of which more than half are Malays, subsidies are getting more expensive and it is becoming a complicated issue. There is also much more thievery and wastage by the BN elites in Malaysia. And there is no bottomless ‘well’ full of money. Everything has its limits.

The first problem lies in the basic nature of money – it must be deployed to create value and benefits that create wealth through its circulation. Dishing out policies and corruption takes value out of the circulating money.

And, the money will soon run out. Without the subsidies for cooking oil, sugar, flour and petrol, how are the people, especially the Malays, going to survive? Already university graduates cannot find jobs or compete in the private sector. What happens when the oil wells dry up and oil money runs out? What happens when (not if, but when) the Government cannot simply spend billions of oil money to sustain its voting base any longer? That is why we fear the coming of the time when we may see people sleeping in the streets, just like in Indonesia. If that happens in this country, its future will go up in flames. We will all be consumed in a vicious spiral controlled by factors that lead to the doldrums and the gates of poverty.

In Indonesia, the Government has not mobilized its hundreds of millions of people (over 300 million Indonesians), a population that is growing fast, with the competitive skills to grow enough food for themselves. Hence food is expensive. They do not even have simple survival skills like coming to work on time, personal organization to do simple tasks is poor, maintaining good hygiene and cleanliness and so on. One in 15 Indonesians has latent TB. They are poorly read and not informed about many things that are going on around the world. Hence, the masses are easily stirred. Their Government has failed a fast growing population in all these aspects. Hence the average Indonesian remains poor.

A progressive society, though large in its population, garners economic strength when it has a sound education, creates wealth and protects its environment, and functions in a democracy with good laws with a fair and independent judiciary, and over time its middle class and upper middle class forms at least 60% of the population and it can then be seen as a vibrant or a dynamic market. Otherwise, a poor population, growing at the rate of the Indonesian population is a burdensome headache that will develop into an economic migraine with troubling problems related to illegal immigration for its neighbors.
Similar trends are noticeable in Malaysia. Our young people, especially the Malays, do not possess basic survival skills. We are not talking about competitive skills but just basic survival skills. The Government is not serious about giving them a sound education that emphasizes useful competitive skills either or importance of knowledge for the work place and the language skills that can help them in an ecosystem driven by globalization and global markets but shows that it is busy with the craft of creating level playing fields to help the Malays..

The Mat Rempits are being glorified by the politicians as saviors of the nation (Mat Cemerlang). Correction is urgently needed. These groups of youth are drug users, gang rapists, snatch thieves and street fighters. They are losers and failures, byproducts of a system that created them and sealed their future.

When an efficient Policewoman called SAC Nooriyah Anvar was appointed Chief of Traffic Police she went after the Mat Rempits with a vengeance. Does anyone remember her? She confiscated their bikes on the spot. But soon the Mat Rempits called their political muscle and Nooriyah Anvar was kicked out. To date, she holds the record of being the shortest serving Traffic Police Chief in Malaysia. She has been replaced by SAC Datuk Hamza Taib.
This again reflects that the Government is not serious about improving the position of the Malays. The elite in the ruling party quickly learnt how to subjugate and pacify them with policies that appear appealing but on closer look serves as appeasing fodder without nutrients. It serves the Barisan Nasional Government to keep the Malays down and out. In that situation, the Malays remain culturally shackled and can go only to the Government for crumbs. Recently, the DPM was quoted as saying, “You won’t be here if not for the government.” Yes, how true! This way the ruling elites get to keep the whole loaf to themselves. Go and visit Indonesia. This is what is happening over there. It is happening over here too.

Does Malaysia have a problem? Yes the Malays are not happy, the Chinese are not happy and the Indians are not happy. They spoke out at the March 2008 polls and hope things will change for the better, now they have some opposition who promised change. The Malays are being duped by their corrupted leaders by using the religion, the Chinese and Indians are being marginalized by the ruling elite. Let us all Malaysians wake up and fight the corrupt system for the benefit of everyone. Let us all unite and stand together and change the system for once and for all.

 We are not Malays, Chinese or Indians, we are Malaysians.

Malaysians May End Up Sleeping in the streets if no change is made to the present corrupt and very selfish system.

and so the award goes too…

BN won 55 seats, DAP 12 and PKR 3, with 1 seat going to an independent

and for couple of hours before official results were announced at 8pm (on the really pathetic TV1 channel it seems) updates were non stop online already. twitter, Facebook and even the blogs with their instant updates kicked TV updates BIG TIME! it’s a loss for sure, but a small step towards the big picture. and in this time and day, the big picture is key.

and even though he is sworn in as Chief Minster AGAIN (its been 30 years and his 7th term) it wont be long now. i mean seriously.. he’s what.. 78? 88? 98? sadness monster seriously



PKR declares victory for Pakatan in Sarawak

KUCHING, April 16 — PKR declared victory for Pakatan Rakyat (PR) tonight despite suffering massive losses, claiming the polls results were an “excellent start” to a new beginning for Sarawak and a sign that Malaysians were ready for a two-party system.

PKR’s Sarawak chief Baru Bian, who won in Ba’Kelalan seat, said the pact’s success in more than doubling its seat representation in the state assembly was a sign that Barisan Nasional’s (BN) “fixed deposit” of Sarawak was now “being withdrawn.”

“I would like to give thanks to the many people who prayed for us. The whole country was praying for a change and it has come … it is a sign, it is an excellent start and a new beginning for change in Sarawak,” he told a press conference at the party’s headquarters here.

Tonight’s results saw DAP scoring a resounding victory when it swept up 12 of the 15 seats it had contested while PKR won in three out of 49 seats and PAS lost in all five seats.

In total, BN retained its two-thirds majority but with a reduced tally from 63 to 55. Independent George Lagong won in one seat.

Sarawak-based opposition party SNAP, which fielded candidates to contest against PKR in 26 seats after a disagreement over seat distribution, failed to win a single seat and many of its candidates have even lost their deposits for the polls.

“From the results, one of the most obvious and good things is that it confirmed to us that the two-party system, that rose from the 2008 tsunami, is here to stay. It is a reality, judging from the vote pattern.

“It looks like the clear choice for the people is either BN or PR … this is a good sign of approval from Sarawakians that the system is here to stay,” he said.

Despite its failure to deny BN its customary two-thirds majority in the House, the opposition nearly doubled its tally from eight to 15, a clear indication that PR had successfully broken into the ruling government’s east Malaysian fortress.

PKR president Datin Seri Dr Wan Azizah Wan Ismail, who jointly chaired the press conference tonight, agreed with Baru’s reading of the poll results, saying that Sarawakians had displayed political maturity throughout the 10-day campaign period and when casting their ballots today.

“I would like to congratulate Sarawak. The results are historic … never in the history of Sarawak and this leads us to the two-party system,” she said.

She also acknowledged that PKR had suffered major losses in the polls as it had only triumphed in three of the 49 seats it had contested but blamed the losses on electoral fraud.

“We were facing a government machinery so I thank Allah that we have done pretty well in the election.

“We were not faced with an ordinary or level playing field so now we want to see where these irregularities are and we will make our protest known,” she said.

Both Baru and Wan Azizah agreed that tonight’s outcome would boost PR’s confidence in the coming federal elections, which has to be called before 2013.

Baru noted, however, that the voting pattern from the polls showed that many of those living in the interiors of Sarawak were still starry-eyed over BN’s promises of development and election goodies.

The urban and semi-urban vote played a major factor in PR’s success in tonight’s state polls, a clear indication that the pact has yet to make significant headway with rural communities, often considered as BN’s vote bank.

“There is a change … but there is still a percentage of people in the rural areas who are yet to be ready to look into the future. Their judgements are clouded by how BN dangles carrots and projects before them,” he said.

He promised, however, that PR would compile a list of BN’s many promises made during the polls and hold them to it.

“We will expose them. I am confident that if we put the facts and truth before the people, their mindset will change,” he said.

p/s we may have lost the battle, but we will persevere because the WAR is coming!

must be something in the air

just watched the sweetest video.. ever! it was being passed/posted and commented on all over FB and twitter..  (usually i don’t even pay attention) but the guy looked kinda hot 🙂

and seriously.. AWWWWW 🙂

or maybe it was a combination of knowing that the ideal man should be able to clean, cook, sing, massage and have a nice bod? BAHAHAAH 🙂 (soz, inside joke)

but am feeling very clucky recently (maybe its all the kiddos and babies at work?) and a little wistful. maybe it is the industry.. designing / thinking about kids cakes and cupcakes all day long can do that to you i reckon.

or maybe, just maybe its watching a TV series about farming, horses and lambs?.. sue me, im hooked. the accent is driving me mad, but im hooked!

Video from the amazing people at Jubilee Project

p/s feeling nesty and clucky at the same time, is DEFFO not a good idea! that and being taken out of my comfort zone, my little hidey hole.. its time to move on. 1 month and counting 🙂

doors and windows

i have always believed in the adage of when a door closes, a window opens. and true enough, it has happened. maybe its timing, maybe its fate or just maybe, just maybe my prayers have been heard. its still in the making, so nothing to mention just yet. but let me tell you, i will be jumping WAY over the moon.. WAY OVER!

apart from that, lots been happening, work is busy, good busy. social life.. well.. has picked up a little bit more. no complaints really, i still enjoy my one on one with Waldo, our quality time. seriously. and i have been meaning to get some wall hooks, bedside lamp, some more bed sheets and eventually drawers for all accumulated stuff. but you know me, Sunday is the lazy day, so its been a little hard to get anything done properly.

lately ive been thinking of home, family and my girls. i miss giggly girls, the laughing out loud at the lamest joke, the drunken girls nights, the speculations over chocolate cake on Sunday afternoon. i miss my girls..

but ive compensated with TV, as usual. Ive also been watching Ace of Cakes and i have to say, his work is amazing, but nothing beats Cake Boss’ chemistry and interaction. of course, nothing beats my other TV shows (some of which i am still impatiently waiting for!) its all about patience now.

to be honerst, i have been reminding myself to take a break, to chill-out and the most important of all, to just sit back, smell the roses and not worry about the little things, because frankly, i need to participate. i need to be part of life again. my life has zoomed past in the last 3 years, and its scary, absolutely scary how i did not notice one bit. let’s face it, im in the last stage of the age gap that starts with a 2..

so i got an email the other week, and it made me stop and smile. (note: this was viewed on my phone and even in its small resolution, it was simply something to smile about) i have to share with the world.

smile, cos seriously life is just to short to stress on the nitty-gritty..

is he/she not the cutest thing? 🙂